Dear Hannah

Dear Hannah,
The hardest part for me
Is not the episodes
We didn't watch.
It's not the dances
We did not dance.
It's not the pictures
We did not take.
It's not the memories
We did not make.
And it's not the songs
We did not sing.
It's not the sleepless nights
Thinking of all we planned.
It's not the pictures, the thoughts
The memories on your wall.
It's not the tears
That seem to have no end.
Nor is it the empty room,
The empty bed, the empty chair
At the dinner table.
It's the empty place
You left in my heart.
The hardest part for me
Is the times I forget
And think that you're still
Here.
I'll want to tell you,
Want to show you,
Share something with you.
But then reality comes
Like a speeding train
And I'm faced with the truth
That you are gone.
I'm sorry I didn't get a chance
To say goodbye.
Love,
A life you touched

"How He Loves"

"Oh, how He loces us so."
Lord, we don't even know
But we fear the worst.
Our hearts cry out
But not with joy.
Our voices can be heard
But not because we're happy.
Why? Why dear God?
Why has this happened?
How could you let this happen!?
And in the midst
Of my anger, confusion,
Pain, and sorrow,
These words still echo
In my head:
"Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us."

Fulfilling My New Year's Resolution . . . 11 Months Late

In January I wrote that I'd forgotten I had a blog and it wasn't until someone mentioned it that I remembered. Well, that happened again. This time, though, I intend to keep up with it. I feel like it's really important now since I'm not living in close proximity to the people I want to share my life with anymore. That's kind of a bummer, but I guess it's all the more reason to write on here. So, here's to fulfilling my new year's resolution 11 months later. Just in time to make a new one, right? And is that what you do with a resolution, fulfill it? I don't even know but that's the only thing I could think of that makes sense. Don't ask what else my mind came up with.
I think the reason I have failed to keep up with my blog is because I was the only one motivating myself to do it. So if you see that I haven't posted anything in a while and you want to know more about my life, send me a facebook message, e-mail, or even a note in a paper airplane. Whatever works for you.
Oh, and to go along with what I guess could be called the re-opening of my blog, I updated it and changed the formatting and all that fun stuff. Well, I changed it a little. But you know me, I'm a traditionalist.